I don't wish to start the first blog post of the year this gloomy but I hope to be honest about why I was so quiet for the past 2 years. I was not in a good place mentally and it was really difficult to pretend that I am well. So, I sought the easiest route - to disappear.
I thought by quietly disappearing from social media, I will be forgotten. And eventually, if I were to really disappear from the face of this earth, it will not bear any burden to anyone because I, to begin with, did not even exist.
I did pop by once in a while on my social media on my better days to keep track of days where "I made it". But most days, I was simply in a complete slump. There were months when I simply could not even touch my PS4. I was not able to enjoy playing games or taking photos anymore. So, they were just there to collect dust. The guilt of not being able to do them made me feel even worse.
Of course, there were stable weeks where I feel simply the best and was in my ought most confidence. Luckily enough, during those weeks I met my current boyfriend. That was also why I was able to squeeze out one blog post in 2019. Despite all the BS I still have to deal with at this
I'm playing games on my PS4 a lot more now. And, we also have games we can play multiplayer offline. We even got a new switch to our gaming collection. I even got a chance to travel to Italy with him and I took a bunch of photos.
I hope to share those photos and a sum-up of our trip. I also hope to share some game reviews as well. I want to share more of our journey together and make this blog a positive space.
The sky and sea were absolutely stunning in Sicilia Italy. If only the blazing summer sun was as tolerable, I'd give it full points.
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