Productive Week!!

2th June 2014

Hello. TGIF!!

I haven't been going around taking selfies or any photos in particular so I'm going to use a photo I took earlier this month. This was taken when I went to enjoy a lovely performance by the Tokyo Symphonic Orchestra.  This photo was taken before the performance start because as usual, no photography was allowed. It was really a brilliant performance but sadly, I was a little too tired and I fell asleep during the last 15 minutes of the performance. It was a good powernap. lol.

This week ended pretty well. It was a lot better than I expected. I was bracing myself for the worst but I guess I managed to tide over this week. This past week had been cloudy and drizzling from time to time.

I am finally making some progress on my research papers. I'm planning to finish all of the research proposals and outlines during the weekends so I won't have to worry about them during the weekdays. Deadline is in a month's time and I'm not freaking out yet because I think I'll be able to pull through.

I've been diligently using my handy-dandy notebook and it is really an accomplishment to see it almost used up. Also, about an hour ago, I used up my favourite erasable pen when I was jotting down stuff on my notebook. How disappointed I was!! I had to switch to using a pencil. I don't like using pencil because my handwriting changes depending on what sort of pen/pencil I use. Most of the time, I'd have ugly and messy handwriting but using that pen, I am able to imitate my mom's handwriting. lol. I can't say I hate it because I've always liked my mother's handwriting. It's small, neat and I personally think looks a little like comic sans font. LOL.

The reason as to why I've been loving the weekends because it is the time where I can really laze at home and try to finish my assignments. I don't think I have to try this weekend because I've finally gotten hold of the "working hard" momentum. I guess because I've sort of found a goal and planned out what I am going to be taking for my final 3 semesters in my college. Now with everything laid out in front of me, all I have to do is work hard and tackle all of them! Easier said than done, but it is still better than not having anything planned out in front. It is always good to plan for the future! Be ambitious!

Besides trying to be all "hardworking", I've managed to catch a dothack anime movie earlier in the week. The movie is called, .hack//sekai no mukou e (ドットハック・セカイの向こうへ). I must say this movie was a pretty good one. The animations were done in 3D instead of the usual 2D. I really really want to play this game in real life. I'm not even talking about the PSP or PS2 but the real MMORPG while wearing those glasses and feeling like I'm in "The World". I want to go on an adventure knowing I won't die because I can respawn at the town center or something and fight wild animals!!

This is the trailer and movie poster.

ドットハック・セカイの向こうに
.hack//seikai no mukou ni (Beyond the world)

Maybe I'm being bias about this series but dothack was the first ever anime series about people being trapped in the MMORPG, that I liked. It was wayyyy before SAO or Log Horizon. I'll always be loyal to dothack series! Though, comparing SAO and Log Horizon, I prefer Log Horizon because I think Shiroe is cooler than Kirito. I'm actually choosing Intellect over looks! lol. But hey, Shiroe don't look too bad himself.

Speaking about animes, i'm really sad the few series that I've been following this season has and is coming to an end.

I've watched:

• Kamigami no Asobi (神々の悪戯)
• No Game No Life
• Kin'iro no Corda: Blue Sky (金色のコルダ: BlueSky)

I'm currently watching these few and they are going to be ending soon. I am so so so sad about it. :(

• Mekakucity Actors (メカクシティアクターズ)
• M3: Sono Kuro Hagane (M3〜ソノ黒キ鋼〜)
• Black Bullet
• Sore demo Sekai wa Utsukushii (それでも世界は美しい)

I am in love with the Sore demo sekai wa utsukushii's story!! It's not the typical shoujo manga love story setting so it makes it even better. I'm a sucker for shoujo genre animes. Which goes to show, I am still a young girl at heart! lol. I am still young. Uh huh!!

Anyways, I've also manage to update my itunes just for a little bit. I haven't been going around finding new songs to listen but I am addicted to this song "Chippoke na Ai no Uta" (ちっぽけな愛の歌) by Ohara Sakurako, the new singer/actress who acted in the live-action adaptation movie of the manga, "Kanojo wa uso wo Aishisugiteru". This song was also the OST of the movie. This song always reminds me of the story in the movie and allows me to imagine that this song was produced by Sato Takeru for me. Such touching lyrics. It's all fictional but a fan can dream anytime righttttt?! lol. Also, Sakurako has a nice voice. I can forsee her bright future in the entertainment industry! Looking forward to her future appearances in other films and her future singles/albums.

Alright, I'll stop writing now because  I have a field trip to the Tokyo Metropolitan Archaeology Center field trip tomorrow for my Anthropology class.

Good Night.

xoxo,
C

Lazy Monday Reflections

Piggy Plush accompanying me while I do my assignments on my bed. lol
21st June 2014

Hello. For some odd reason, I woke up really late today around 2 o'clock in the afternoon. I usually don't sleep in THIS late but I was so 'into" my dream that I had earlier. I wanted to know what is going to happen next. Unfortunately, I don't remember the contents of my dream that I had earlier.

This is what I've recently been trying to do which is update my blogs more frequently. I wanted to do this because I want to be able to look back at my diaries and see how much I've grown and achieved in life. How many times I feel like a piece of nothing and how many times I managed to pull myself up together. Even though I prefer to keep this private to only my close friends and perhaps have a written journal, I think I should be more less self conscious about what other people might think of me.

This "self-conscious" topic and about achieving our dreams was something me and my best friend, Mai, were talking about yesterday. In fact, we have been having conversations like this recently when we go out drinking on a friday night, or any nights when we are out drinking.

Yesterday, We went to a live house at Shinjuku HeadPower to support our college seniors who were performing that night. It was a brilliant performance! Considering how long has it been since I've been to a live house, it felt really weird. It was as if I don't belong there anymore. Nonetheless, I enjoyed myself that night.

Mai and I went off to a restaurant to have a little drink and we started talking about our futures. Seems a little bleak and we're trying to keep a positive mindset about it. It is not 100% impossible, it just seems really difficult. It will be almost like sacrificing  everything we have just to attain that one passion and dream we do not want to give up.  We also talked about how we use to be so self-conscious about people's opinions on us, that we gave up what we really wanted and eventually regretting it. I guess the adolescent period really screwed us up. It took us quite awhile to realize everything and I'm not sure if it is too late or is there still time. Though, I really do not mind if I start realizing everything a little late, but I would really like to know if there is still a chance.

This is what friends should be doing. Giving mental support, giving helpful advices even though it means disagreeing. Friends like these don't come by so often and when they do, I try my best to keep them. Usually, I manage to keep them because they are really awesome people that I love sincerely with all my heart!! lol.

Also, I have been trying to go on a healthy diet however, excluding the morning jogs because I cannot wake up in the morning to do so and I am lazy. I have been trying to eat less unhealthy food and making sure I can digest all my food well so I don't feel bloated all the time. Since the temperature is increasing slowly as the rainy season come and go, I need to slim down to have more confidence to wearing sleeveless clothes. I have sleeveless tops and dresses but I'm too self-conscious about my own body to wear them out. I cannot stand my flabby arms or thighs. Anyways, I also haven't been having the appetite to eat recently. It's a good combination yet a bad one, though I'm not sure how to explain myself on this part. lol.

Cloudly Tokyo this week.

Love,
C

Piggy Plush

Me with Piggy Plush
17th June 2014

Hello.

It has been an awesome week though I didn't get enough of my weekly dose of sociology class. I manage to catch a huge piggy plush from the arcade UFO catcher section. It's so cute that it was love at first sight. I thought, "I need to have it!!". Off I went to spend an amount trying to catch it. I finally did manage to catch it while being totally convinced I suck at UFO catchers. I was never good at them and I doubt I'll ever be. But i must say, I am good at those smaller UFO catchers. I guess the saying "Trying somebody your own size" isn't just a saying, it really has a true meaning behind it and I am totally convinced!

Another joyful news is that midterm examinations are over! I got back my results and I am pretty satisfied with my it. I hope the least I can do is maintain my grades during the final term examination. I should concentrate on finishing my research papers and proposals because time is running out. I will try not to procrastinate during this weekend. I really want to get started with all of it because it will be a good form of motivation to get it done at least a week before the due date.

I ended my day with a bottle of heineken beer and some bibimbap dinner at Shin-Okubo, korean town in Tokyo, with my mate. It is always so fun to hang out with her! I hardly get to see her in college because our schedules don't allow us to meet at all. Even if we do have classes together, we can't talk because we have to pay attention in class. I can't complain because I have the chance to take the classes that I am interested in. We can't win 'em all.

I think I'll go play some games on my PSP before calling it a night. For some reason, I can't wait to get up tomorrow to have breakfast. I'm always thinking about food. lol.

Love,
C

PS: I did a little twitching with my layout. Thought that this would make the whole blog look cleaner. Also, new updated blog header. One of my "talented" shots of the scenery at DisneySea late last year. What do you think about it? x

New hair-cut!

14th June 2014
New Haircut for the summer!

Hello.

Yesterday, I went to the hair salon, watched Persona 3: The Movie #2 Midsummer Knight's Dream and went to the bookstore for a few hours to find some books.

Even though I finally managed to gather all my courage to  snip my hair shorter than before, I was still slightly worried. Thankfully, I don't look that bad though I am still slightly not use to my current look. But I must say, my hair is so much more manageable! I might go to the hair salon to get my hair cut shorter again, but I'll see how everything goes. lol.

Afterwhich, I went to watch a Persona 3 movie in Shinjuku. Oh my, the movie ended at one of the most depressing part. If I hadn't play the game, I'd probably cry in the movie theatres. lol. I almost did though! Now, I am so looking forward to watching the final part of the movie. I was told Persona 3 was suppose to be a darker and sadder storyline while Persona 4 was a brighter and happier one. Nonetheless, both are good! I mean, it's the persona series! I'm totally in love with the persona series.

Side note, it was a little embarrassing to be  in the theatres alone because about 3/4 of them were male. I should have expected it but I guess it was quite some time I went to watch movies alone. Nice and relaxing day out after weeks of stressing out.

My stress over unfinished assignments is going to start again real soon. I can't believe I'm already midway in the semester. I hope summer will be kind to all of us. Less hot sun and perhaps more cloudy and windy days!

Love,
C

Rainy Season

ビックリドンキー・ハンバーグレストラン
Bukkuri Donkey a Hamburg Steak Resturant
8th June 2014 @ Shinjuku

Hello. I haven't been writing as much as I should be. I'm a little caught up with school recently and I have been forced to do more writing in school this semester. This week is my mid-terms exam and I am totally not prepared so I am freaking out a little.

Recently, I've been listening to a lot of classical music. I have always been fascinated by classical music so I guess I managed to find my way near it thanks to technology. I just think it is really sad that I can't play violin or any of those orchestra instruments. I wish I could though.

Today, I left my house and headed to school a little earlier; About 15 minutes earlier  than the intended time. I opened my tunein radio application on my iphone to listen to my daily dose of classical music. When I was walking on the streets, it played this really beautiful symphony, it sounded a little sad but I like music that are emotional and a little depressing because they sound more fantasy like. For some reason, I felt really calm after that. Perhaps a little too calm because I am still slightly annoyed over some issues last week. Perhaps, this is how "the calm after a storm" quote came about.

The weather is slightly depressing here in Tokyo. It is the rainy season here in Japan, or what they like to call it - "梅雨"(tsuyu). I'm not good with the rain because it makes me sad and I lose my mood to do anything.  Today is one good example whereby I don't feel like seeing anyone or talk to anyone. I went home straight after class today because I just want to hide in my room. On the way out of school, I met my friend, Sam, and I offered to walk back together since she was heading home too. It would be weird of me to just walk off without saying much.

After coming to Japan for one year and getting my visa renewed. I realized something. This is not the place I want to be. I cannot see myself staying here longer than 5 years. All I know is that I want to spend my days in school peacefully and learn as much as I can and get back into to working society with confidence.

What I find really strange is that I cannot imagine myself in the next 10 years. But I can imagine myself when I am 40 or 50 years old, still working but I am happy. Not the richest but I am contented with my life. Now, I am just some angsty young adult still trying to find places where I can fit in.

I should not blabber on and get on with my assignments. I can't wait for this week to be over.


Chisaki